My Experience with Healing Science

This past weekend, I attended the Barbara Brennan Fundamentals workshop. As I mentioned before, I have had a pretty intense month and April will definitely be an "extreme self care" period, as my coach likes to say. I will be busy integrating many experiences and putting into practice many things that I learned this past five weeks. Whew!

First of all, I would like to honor Joy Adler, the workshop facilitator. I was inspired by her love and dedication for this group. She was always positive and supportive in helping us risk, stretch and grow. She never had a single criticism, her comments were always focused on what we were doing well. I suspect that it can be very vulnerable to be in the presence of someone who can read energy and know the truth of our feelings. I never felt vulnerable throughout the entire weekend. Thank you Joy!

We covered a lot of material that is presented in Barbara Brennan's book "Hands of Light" and received hands on practice with tools and methods that we can use with our clients. About 3/4 of the class participants are massage therapists. I love the thought that they will be able to apply what we learned and deepen their effectiveness for their clients. My sister Nancy is a phenomenal massage therapist and through her own intuition and experience she has developed her own High Sense Perception. I have heard stories and personally experienced the difference when she is using energy in combination with the massage. It makes a huge difference.

One of the most important things that we learned this weekend was how to ground ourselves and draw energy up through our core. So many times people who work with energy become burned out. We are not batteries, we are channels. Learning to tap into an infinite energy source is critical for all of us, and especially people in the "helping" professions like therapists, medical personnel, coaches, etc.. I know that over the years I did not know how to ground myself and I did not know how to protect myself from other people's energy. I was like a sponge that absorbed a lot from others.

I have had a two times in my life where I had emotional breakdowns. During this weekend, I was feeling overwhelmed with emotion, I shut down and I couldn't stop crying. It felt like my previous experiences all over again. During the two periods when I had my "emotional breakdowns", I would set a goal to not cry for 24 hours and failed daily for months. It was incredibly embarrassing for me to cry and lose control, especially "moi" who had my emotions under such a tight lid. I spent the last 3 years allowing myself to get in touch with my emotions, and here I was, in the same rabbit hole again.

As I mentioned in earlier posts, I am in the Individualist / Pluralist stage of Adult Development and it is common to look back on our lives and recast our own story as well as let go of a lot of our history.

According to Joy, I "blew out" my solar plexus chakra. I was fortunate to be with a person who knew exactly what was going on and was able to heal my chakra. I suddenly understood those two intense periods with a whole new light. In fact, my past experiences helped me see the power of being able to help others in hours or days rather than months or perhaps years. It certainly opened up another world for me in terms of learning about energy and the science of healing.

During the Sunday meditation, I had an experience where my guide put his/her hands into mine. Have you seen the "Incredible Hulk" hands at Halloween time, where the hands are huge? That is what my hands felt like - they were about 3x the size of my own. We did a healing after the meditation and not only did I have "Hulk Hands", but my lower body was vibrating the whole time which was interesting. I definitely have something going on with my hands between my experience last week and this one. LOL!

As with all big decisions, I wait 30 days to check in and see what I am feeling about this work. There is an opportunity to study this in a four year program and this is a big commitment. As with the previous five months of this sabbatical, I don't know where this is headed but I do trust that I am on a path and on purpose. In the meantime, I will be talking this week with the owner of the local massage spa to start offering Reiki to her clients and set up times with friends to refine my skills.

With much love and gratitude for everything until now and the sweetness of what is yet to be...

Mj xoxo

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Theta Brainwave Entrainment

A few weeks ago, I purchased the Neuro-Programmer 2 software after reading the website www.4mind4life.com/blog/ and other resources that I have been discovering. I am very impressed with the functionality and options in this program. I have been using the 50 min Theta Alternating Hypnotic Deep Relax session with a brief introductory script to help me relax. After using this for a few times, I can skip the relaxation script.

My theta experiences may have been "tainted" with the experiences that I have had over the last few weekends. I learned Quantum Touch, became an Adept with the Rocky Mountain Mystery School, received my Reiki Level II attunement, and attended a Barbara Brennan Fundamentals workshop. Each of these experiences have helped me learn how to "run energy" and/or increased my capacity to hold more energy over matter. On the other hand, I feel that the theta brainwave entrainment helped me experience these weekends at a deeper level. Here are some changes that I noticed overall.

Sleeping - I am much more active in my dreams and sleeping much lighter which suggests that I am spending more sleeping time in theta. Prior to using this program, I was a pretty sound sleeper and it was typical for me to sleep through the night. Now, I often wake every 45 to 90 minutes and am a bit more tired in the morning. When I was sleeping deeper, I would wake up very fresh and ready for the day.

Dreaming - As I mentioned, I am dreaming more often and thankfully not nightmares or weird dreams. They have seemed rather normal and often relate to what I experienced the day before.

Mental State - I have noticed that I feel much more "even" and peaceful and loving it! I only remember once having a "cranky pants" moment since I started using this programmer (although in all fairness I ought to confirm that with my hubby!) I seem to take a lot more things in stride and feel much happier all around. My thinking has slowed down but not at a pace that it has caused me any concern. My thoughts are clearer and my ability to stay in the present moment is easier to maintain.

Meditation - It is much easier for me to slip into a meditation state, although I do have "monkey mind" from time to time. In some meditations, I drift off not into sleep but it feels like awake dreaming. I am semi conscious but I am clearly off somewhere else and not fully present to the room. I have also had a much easier time visualizing and downloading messages from my guides. My meditations have felt much more relaxing and productive.

A few weeks ago, I was on mission to create some meditations for myself. I used some content from Nikki Cobb's "Your Divine Heritage" book which explains how to access our Higher Self states of consciousness. I used music that was specifically designed for theta wave states from Dr. Jeffery Thompson or Reiki music. I also used the theta brainwave entrainment sounds underlying the tracks to encourage theta waves. I have asked a few friends to try these meditations and provide feedback. If you are interested, please contact me and I can arrange to send you copies. I will use your feedback to create a final version.

With much love and gratitude, Mj XOXO

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Adept Initiation and Reiki Level II Attunement

I am going to write on the brainwave experiences next and first share my experiences from the last two weeks.

A week ago last Saturday, I became an Adept in the Rocky Mountain Mystery School. This Mystery School is one of seven and the only one that is public. My friend Pat initiated me at her horse farm in Whitehouse Station NJ. This ceremony enables me to hold 10x more light energy. I had received the King Solomon healing and a DNA activation from Pat last year which helped me "Clear and Connect" and prepare for this day. The work of the Adept is to clear the negative ego. The next steps are to become a Teacher, and if selected, a Master.

In energy work, we focus on increasing energy over matter which helps to facilitate a person's own healing. Through learning, maturity, initiations and experiences we can all increase energy over matter which enables us to live our lives in more harmony. The overall vibration of the planet is increasing and it is up to us to do our part by paying attention to our own level of vibration. This initiation is part of my journey and it truly felt like a second Baptism. Throughout the ceremony I had feelings of light, love, peace and serenity that I have never felt before. I simply knew that I was in the right place at the right time and this experience was as natural as breathing. I am grateful to Pat for her loving service and the opportunity to be together that day.

Last Saturday, five others and I gathered at the Innergize studio in Colt's Neck to receive our Reiki II attunement from Suzanne. She did a great job of taking us through the symbols and educating us on the finer points of Reiki.

The purpose of the attunement is to receive the symbols and activate them for each one of us. The symbols are sacred and are to be shared only with those who have been attuned to receive them. Some have violated this request and published them on the Internet. The reality is that unless you receive the attunement they are essentially worthless. I wonder if this is parallel to the Catholic traditions where priests receive training in the sacraments. Do they also receive an "attunement" of sorts? Is this true of other religions, too?

I will say that now having gone through these experiences, my eyes have opened much wider on the Mystery Schools and Reiki. Over the last six months I bought the William Rand materials and had gone through the King Solomon healing and now it all has much deeper meaning for me.

In the attunement, my body felt energized all over and especially in my hands. It literally felt like my energy field was opening up and a rod of light was activated through my spine and head. I also had an interesting meditation experience, and I ask that you read this all the way through.

After my attunement was finished and as Suzanne was working with the others, my hands started to slightly jerk open like a book. It felt like they were "clicking" open. As this was happening, I saw myself in a chapel in a castle during the Medieval times, in the late 1200s or the 1300s. I was kneeling and in intense prayer which had been going on for some time. To my right was someone that I knew in this lifetime - Sandy G. - who was the Mother Superior. She had a worried look on her face and it was her turn to watch over me and be with me. I was in complete rapture and looking up at the light streaming in above me. Although I had been there for hours, I had no weariness or fatigue. In this vision I looked down at my hands and I had the stigmata. At that point, Suzanne called us back into the room.

Was this a past life regression? A vision? I know it wasn't a dream because I was conscious and alert the whole time. Who knows what it really was? My takeaway is that it symbolized the importance of both days and how we use our hands and intention to be with others. Hands can provide a loving, healing touch or they can perform one of a thousand other tasks. The message that I received was to treat this work with reverence and use the gifts that we have. I am also clear that experiences do not equal enlightenment.

Since these experiences, my body has been clearing toxins and I have not been feeling 100% the last few days. I am attending a Barbara Brennan workshop this weekend which is another healing system. All of these - Quantum Touch, Barbara Brennan, Reiki, Rocky Mountain Mystery School - they all work on the level of the Universal Energy Field and the Human Energy Field which is central to the work of quantum physics. March is a pretty important month for me! I can't wait to see what is in store for April.

With much love and gratitude, Mj XOXO

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